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25 11 2007

Okay, one more time…Psyche… is different… again.Pax



Redo

12 11 2007

I have a large amount to blog about (I’ve even started procrastinating about stuff I enjoy doing…) but I’ve completely changed Psyche. Again.

Here’s the final menu bar design thing:

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Conditions

29 10 2007

Internet Explorer won’t display the nonstandard character’s on Psyche’s front page and has a messed up Japanese font, Leopard is a service pack and my MacBook Pro can cook things. On the other hand, m35 of jpsx and the people in #lain are working on ripping the videos from the Lain game with sound. What an active community we are… (note the absence of my Unicode ellipsis - I miss OS X already).

I am planning a much, much better incarnation of Psyche. 2.7 will be a landmark version!

I’m running Leopard now and I like it. I plan to dual boot with Debian to familiarise myself with the console before I take the plunge into building a robot to replace me (…that was just a joke + look! Unicode ellipsis!). Getting into the spirit of these saved searches (which I never really embraced in Tiger), I’m tagging my browsers as “browser” etc. I want to be able to type “browser” into Spotlight and be able to quickly choose whichever one. There’s probably a better solution (using a stack? Actually using the Desktop for aliases?) but I like metadata…

Pax



Mentex

27 10 2007

I went to a talk with my mother about dementia - it was to help us care for my demented grandmother. Most people there wanted to complain about the NHS’s stupidity in terms of distributing an acetylcholine-conserving drug (I won’t go into it; it’s pretty dumb) but I found the guy’s stuff quite chilling. Some was straight out of Memento (being unable to “make new memories”, reverting to old memories “for comfort”), some Lain (”if your patient doesn’t remember it, you’re best off pretending that it never really happened”) and the atmosphere - support group, like - was straight out of Fight Club…

I wish I’d known about XFN before! I have to add it to Psyche… and my blogroll.

This is cool and this may come in handy.

The whole OiNK/Pirate Bay thing reminds me of the Great Hacker War somehow.

I’ve seriously had to start sending emails to myself to remember stuff. I think I will use notes in Mail in Leopard after all…

There’s a new David Gray song!

From Everything2:

Serial Experiments Lain begins to scratch at the surface of what is on everyones mind, but is not yet full developed, quite similar to the show. The fears of a nation barreling towards self-oblivion, with ultra high suicide rates, low-paying-high-stress jobs, and family structures that are crumbling because of a lack of communication of emotions, and moral values.

Pax



Backdate

18 10 2007

Everything in my life is non-linearly connected: Go here and read the paragraph headed “Psyche”…

I found Lain… in the past…? :)
Pax



Validate

15 10 2007
Vivan Jayant: 14:16:58
You do realise
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:04
Serial Experiments Lain
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:10
Is just a short-lived anime
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:15
From the late 90’s
Farhan Mannan: 14:17:31
yessssssss but i want to know why i reacted so badly to it
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:40
Because you wish could happen.
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:40
Like God.
Farhan Mannan: 14:17:47
but why SO badly?
Farhan Mannan: 14:17:51
god was easy
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:52
Because
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:53
You’re an idiot.
Farhan Mannan: 14:18:29
really?
Farhan Mannan: 14:19:23
really?
Vivan Jayant: 14:19:29
No.
Farhan Mannan: 14:19:41
i dream of the semantic web
Farhan Mannan: 14:19:59
Metacrap is a portmanteau drawn from metadata and crap.
Vivan Jayant: 14:20:14
Metadata

[...snip...]

Vivan Jayant: 14:35:01
You
Vivan Jayant: 14:35:10
Are attention-seeking.
Farhan Mannan: 14:35:19
:O

What this has helped me to understand is that having a bunch of mild personality disorders means everything I do becomes invalid; it’s the result of trying to get attention or being crazy. Even if I don’t think it is, it is! This is my subconscious helping me feel real when in fact I’m faking my way to being an interesting person. If this is in fact true then I am in trouble.

I believe that my desire to relive things that didn’t happen and to believe in ideals that don’t exist is part of a search for purpose. I think I’ve written about this on Psyche, although I’m not entirely sure if it survived my many cleanups. Anyway, that belief I hold is probably erroneous. I’m probably just a total mess! This is why I need to “become awesome”:

Vivan Jayant: 14:36:26
Get goodl.
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:29
eer
Farhan Mannan: 14:36:34
what?
Farhan Mannan: 14:36:35
at what?
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:38
Anything.
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:41
One thing
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:44
Become
Farhan Mannan: 14:36:46
so I can justify being a weirdo?
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:48
Awesome
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:52
at one thing
Farhan Mannan: 14:37:03
so I can justify being a weirdo? so I can pretend to have a reason for all my messed-upness?
Vivan Jayant: 14:37:09
No
Vivan Jayant: 14:37:13
Because being awesome is good.
Farhan Mannan: 14:37:22
but that won’t help me be a good person
Farhan Mannan: 14:37:35
just a more talented messed up person
Vivan Jayant: 14:37:37
There is no such thing as a good person.
Vivan Jayant: 14:37:45
Just lots of messed up people.
Farhan Mannan: 14:37:48
…this is going downhill

Being awesome isn’t inherently good, unless Vivan was oversimplifying something… but it will help me to offset my stupidity and dementia. I don’t understand the significance of hypertime - just another dimension we can never directly interact with?

What the hell is socionics?

Pax



Lain

14 09 2007

I have just redone the CSS for Psyche yet again. Its readability and layout is improved, in my opinion, and I have hopefully allowed it to render in Internet Explorer (for a long time it simply did not render!).

It has survived for a long time. I am also in the process of updating its content (useful, no?).

Connections between everything continue to grow stronger. There’s a talk at school on Monday about Conway’s game of life. My old maths teacher told us something about John Conway a few years ago. He’s pretty great (both maths teacher and JC, I mean). Also, the glider, one of the cellular automata in Life, is prominently displayed on Psyche’s frontpage as a hacker emblem. Similarly, the Lain thing. I’ve only just made an effort to watch it, having had references to it lying around on Psyche (which is itself a reference to Lain) and lo and behold it is awesome.

Interesting?

Pax



Psyche 2.3

31 05 2007

Psyche 2.3 is uploading now. Roll on (X)HTML5

Pax