15
10
2007
Vivan Jayant: 14:16:58
You do realise
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:04
Serial Experiments Lain
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:10
Is just a short-lived anime
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:15
From the late 90’s
Farhan Mannan: 14:17:31
yessssssss but i want to know why i reacted so badly to it
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:40
Because you wish could happen.
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:40
Like God.
Farhan Mannan: 14:17:47
but why SO badly?
Farhan Mannan: 14:17:51
god was easy
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:52
Because
Vivan Jayant: 14:17:53
You’re an idiot.
Farhan Mannan: 14:18:29
really?
Farhan Mannan: 14:19:23
really?
Vivan Jayant: 14:19:29
No.
Farhan Mannan: 14:19:41
i dream of the semantic web
Farhan Mannan: 14:19:59
Metacrap is a portmanteau drawn from metadata and crap.
Vivan Jayant: 14:20:14
Metadata
[...snip...]
Vivan Jayant: 14:35:01
You
Vivan Jayant: 14:35:10
Are attention-seeking.
Farhan Mannan: 14:35:19
:O
What this has helped me to understand is that having a bunch of mild personality disorders means everything I do becomes invalid; it’s the result of trying to get attention or being crazy. Even if I don’t think it is, it is! This is my subconscious helping me feel real when in fact I’m faking my way to being an interesting person. If this is in fact true then I am in trouble.
I believe that my desire to relive things that didn’t happen and to believe in ideals that don’t exist is part of a search for purpose. I think I’ve written about this on Psyche, although I’m not entirely sure if it survived my many cleanups. Anyway, that belief I hold is probably erroneous. I’m probably just a total mess! This is why I need to “become awesome”:
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:26
Get goodl.
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:29
eer
Farhan Mannan: 14:36:34
what?
Farhan Mannan: 14:36:35
at what?
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:38
Anything.
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:41
One thing
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:44
Become
Farhan Mannan: 14:36:46
so I can justify being a weirdo?
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:48
Awesome
Vivan Jayant: 14:36:52
at one thing
Farhan Mannan: 14:37:03
so I can justify being a weirdo? so I can pretend to have a reason for all my messed-upness?
Vivan Jayant: 14:37:09
No
Vivan Jayant: 14:37:13
Because being awesome is good.
Farhan Mannan: 14:37:22
but that won’t help me be a good person
Farhan Mannan: 14:37:35
just a more talented messed up person
Vivan Jayant: 14:37:37
There is no such thing as a good person.
Vivan Jayant: 14:37:45
Just lots of messed up people.
Farhan Mannan: 14:37:48
…this is going downhill
Being awesome isn’t inherently good, unless Vivan was oversimplifying something… but it will help me to offset my stupidity and dementia. I don’t understand the significance of hypertime - just another dimension we can never directly interact with?
What the hell is socionics?
Pax
Do you really want this floating around on the web…. forever?
I don’t see anything too bad in there; I don’t really mind.