psyche

It is Lain herself who asserts that people only have substance in the memories (did she mean minds?) of other people. This means that although she doesn’t literally “kill” or “delete” herself, she becomes nothing. No-one will ever properly know her and all her previous sacrifices are rendered meaningless by her final one. I am becoming insane. To be forever alone and never remembered? I don’t… understand.

That’s the worst form of immortality! I would have been less saddened by SEL if Lain had just killed herself! It’s too much.

People complain a lot about how slow and sparse SEL is, but isn’t that the point? The idea of eternal loneliness while surrounded by people… being totally forgotten… it is what disturbs and harrows me about SEL, but it’s the essence of SEL, isn’t it? Isn’t it?

Eventually I’ll just call SEL “a good thing to watch” like I do The Matrix (and how I now think Harry Potter is “good” instead of totally amazing like I did when I posted Potter.) Nonetheless, at the moment, SEL’s bizarre combination of loneliness, sadness and psycho-horror is compounding my total aimlessness into some total delusion. I continuously Google “Who is Lain?” but am all the while hoping that I will somehow stop caring. It’s the same as when I’d ask “What is The Matrix?” or just generally feel that the world was messed up.

Pax